Tuesday… In which I once more wear my heart on my sleeve and try gracefully to accept that bad choices aren’t always necessarily mistakes…
So it would seem like i’ve set myself a precedent. Writing a blog entry a day. What on earth have I let myself in for and more to the point what will I write about? Watch this space… Only time will tell.
I once said that my biggest mistake was falling for a man who caused me to build 10 ft walls of steel around my heart. I now take that back. Why? Because partly it was my own stupid fault anyway, I should have seen it coming. In hindsight it was by all means a train wreck waiting to happen. But secondly, how can something be a mistake if in the end you learn so much from it?
How we met was truly one of the biggest clichés known to man. Best man. Maid of honour. And for this reason perhaps that’s why the romantic in me wanted to make it work. Trust me when I say that it was NEVER going to work.
It wasn’t necessarily this particular life event (Or the catastrophic fallout that came after) that ultimately caused my breakdown early 2013. But I can honestly say now looking back, it was what finally tipped me over the edge when in that February my world inevitably came unravelling around me.
But and this is a big but! If there’s one thing I have learned from all of this, it’s that regardless, you should ALWAYS take chances. If you have a dream, go for it. And if you love someone then go ahead and tell them. Sure they might not reciprocate it, or it might go horribly wrong. But life is way too short to sit on your behind or keep your mouth shut. Who knows? It might turn out to be the greatest love of your life. Then again it might not. Either way you’ll learn some kind of valuable life lesson from it I can assure you.
If I could change a single moment looking back I don’t think I would. Because every experience in life, whether good or bad, teaches us something and helps to shape the person that we will inevitably become. ‘He’ certainly helped shape the person I am sat here writing this today. And whether he knows it or not he was one of the biggest influences on my life to date. When all is said and done, surely that’s got to count for something?
On another note… Today I can finally introduce the gorgeous Sarah (See pic) who is to be the face of our future fashion empire. Later this week she’ll also be testing some makeup products for us!
As always… Have a fabulous day!
Although some would criticise or frown upon me for wearing my heart on my sleeve so vehemently, as time goes on, (and this blog hopefully) you will see that I do categorically do so. I’m not ashamed or afraid of this, I am who I am and I’ve found over the years that not only is being upfront and honest a little more refreshing, but that speaking from the heart is the quickest sure-fire way to get people to connect with one another. The same goes for my novel. Although a work of fiction, I have drawn on real life aspects and experiences… If a reader can’t connect emotionally to the characters then they won’t connect at all with the story. (#Writers Tip Number 1. for you there!) More about my novel to come in a future blog…
You will note (Those of you who look at the miniscule details such as the times of these things) that I write at all hours. I have been known to carry a notepad around in my handbag as well as all the other rubbish that gets crammed in there. Post it notes with frantically scribbled notes also feature regularly, stuffed in my purse between store cards I never use and receipts I have no need to keep. I am by all means a hoarder.
Anyway. It’s a Monday morning. And although most people hate rolling out of bed, getting up and going into work doesn’t bother me in the slightest. I’m blessed to work with some very lovely people and as they say, this is half the battle in having a job you enjoy. We do have a tendency to laugh. A lot!
You may spot that I start sentences with words such as ‘And’ or ‘But.’ I do. Not grammatically correct or very good English I know, but this isn’t ever going to be a Nobel Winning Prize blog and I have my unique style of writing that I tend to stick to. However for my sister’s sake, I will refrain from using abbreviations such as lol on here. Hope this pleases you Janine. Lol. (Oops.)
Also, I don’t draft or edit these particular things, I write as I go. So any mistakes or waffling that may take place both now and in the future… Apologies, mistakes are all my own!
Those of you who love your fashion and beauty… Watch this space. I’m off to buy a new phone! Will be able to take photos once more and will be uploading lots of pics and tips for you this week…
Have a fabulous day.
I always wanted to be named something pretty and ‘normal’ like Emma or Sarah rather than what I actually got landed with. (No offence mum and dad.) Instead I was given the ‘not so normal’ name Justine. But then seeing as i’m as far removed from normal as you can get… I’ve now learned to love it a little.
Yes it’s true I do have a tendency to be a drama queen and over exaggerate but without that little personality trait I would probably be boring.
By day I live an average mundane nine to five working life… trying to keep my imagination in check. Prone to daydreaming at work and thinking up writing plots when I should be making patients appointments and whatnot… Ask any of my friends and they will tell you that writing is what makes me… ME! Being creative and generally planning or creating things is what makes me tick.
Undoubtedly a hopeless romantic, I shamelessly believe in love and happy ever afters. Seeing as that hasn’t happened to me yet… and seeing as the cynics out there would have me believe that it NEVER happens like that… I, for now anyway, will cling to the fact that being blessed with a love of prose… will instead get to live life vicariously through the lives (and love lives of course) of my lovely characters. I believe a healthy dose of escapism is good for the soul, or at the very least it might put a smile on your face for an hour or so.
Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you that I have an unhealthy love and obsession with Twitter, Christmas, Books and Fashion. If i’m not writing, you will most likely find me with my nose in a good novel, tweeting incessantly, sewing Christmas stockings or creating my forthcoming fashion line.
So this is me… Welcome to my crazy world. Hope you all have had a fabulous weekend